my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
here's a poem i just sat here and came up with. have fun!
someday
all these voices
in my head
pull me in many ways.
some say die,
some say survive,
some say to run away.
my head muddled
thoughts all fogged
i dont know what to do.
i was lost
nowhere to go
until i found you.
but even now
i'm so confused
i'm just so scared sometimes.
with no way out
feeling alone
but youre there by and by.
a mental block
and i can't tell
that someone's there who cares.
i wish that i
could leave this hell,
take all of my self-dares...
but i cannot
and i refuse
to break those many vows.
i said i wont
and stand by it
no matter what it might arouse.
but these thoughts
these damned voices,
they just wont go away...
and so i hope
and pray they will
let me be me again...someday...
landa daniels // 5-9-02
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