my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
here's the poem i just had to write for choir. i've been doing homework all day, so there really isn't anything ot write about, and i'm kinda pressed for time, so i'm just entering a couple poems for today. hope you like!
Influenza
Someitmes I wish I was back home
the way things used to be.
I miss my father and my mama,
because now it is just me.
It was about this time last year
that they started getting ill.
I prayed to God they'd be okay,
I guess that they had lost their will.
So I sit in this orphanage
feeling all alone.
My brothers and sisters are long gone,
they said they would find a way home.
A few months now, they have been gone,
I guess they forgot about me.
"Anya's just too young to come,
just another mouth to feed."
So they said they would send for me,
when it was all set up.
It's been so long since they left me,
I feel like a lost pup.
All of the other children here
wish they were at home too.
That this influenza had never come,
and things were good as new.
So here I sit, alone in bed,
as I try not to cry.
Still sitting up some nights,
wond'ring why my parents had to die.
-Yolanda Daniels
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