my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
for you
she saw you through
the awkward years,
with al the joy
and all the tears.
and you still talk
after the fights,
not caring who
was wrong or right.
you're lifted up
when you feel down,
she wont let you
live with a frown.
all through high school
she's been your friend,
and you can't see that
nearing an end.
but now she's more
like family,
bringing out your
best qualities.
you feel like you
are in her debt
for putting up
with you upset.
this is for you,
for loving me.
i really dont know
where i'd be...
had we not met
i wouldn't have cared
on that night
when i called and dared
you to think
of reasons why
i needed
to stay alive.
and i've forgotten
all but one...
you said, in tears
"i love you hun.
i dont know what
i would do
those times when i
really need you.
when no one listens,
you're always there,
if i'm hurt,
you always care.
so please dont.
its not your time.
you still have many
years to shine."
at that point
i dropped the knife...
and my sister
saved my life.
and we grew closer
on that night...
thank you for
helping me fight.
landa daniels // june 3, 2002
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