my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
ok, have a poem. this kinda describes what i felt last night, and you may wanna read the poem, slowly, before you read this one, cause they're kinda connected to each other. here goes:
faster
faster,
my eyes see death appear
bringing with it
sadness and fear.
wishing that
it wasn't so.
you never want
to see them go
faster,
i see her slip away.
nothing i can do
to make her stay.
her mom's a wreck
and so am i.
we don't want
to see her die.
faster,
the memories hit me,
all that's been,
and had yet to be.
sitting there,
clutching my garfield,
wishing that this
would take a yield.
faster,
my little sister's there.
she shows me that
she'll always care.
we're both trying
not to cry.
both of us thinking
the same thing: why?
faster,
no time for goodbye,
taking it all in
with a great sigh.
i know she won't
get thru the night...
i see my best friend
lose her fight...
that last stanza has been proven wrong. she's home and everything, getting over it, thank goodness. i was all moody today and everything. ashley was optomistic, as usual, and kristen and i just kinda talked about it. then i got home and found out that she's okay, and called to tell kristen, cause i told her i would. we ended up on the phone for two hours, hehe. been a long time since we pulled that one. and lisa got home right after that, so i'd better go cause i have her on hold so i can do this. so, ttyl guys, and whoever keeps saying eat me, confess dammit.
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