my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
to whom it may concern
this diary is used as a place of venting, or a safe place for the diarist. anything said on here is true emotion, and what the writer is feeling at that time. yes, at times, it may get a little "eh" on one subject and the writer may pour her heart out into it, but that is because she feels so strongly about it to do so. some things are very close to her heart, and she needs a place to write them. it is your choice to read what is in these pages, for you are human, you have your own free will. but, to read this is to accept that this is how the writer is. she cares about certain things, she feels strongly about others. you may not agree with what is said, but again, it is your opinion on the writer's writing, or in this case, life.
updated: july 8, 2003
previously, there a paragraph here about how this diarist would not lock up this diary because of the reasons it exists. well, that had been nulled for about a month of two. this diary was locked for that time, she made a generic name and password for those not diaryland members. why? not only had people been talking about it offline, but her mother had found it. this diarist not really sure which is worse. yes, she is fully aware that an online diary could be found by anyone... but that doesn't mean that the readers should go around telling anyone anything about what is in here. let them find it themselves, don't tell them about it. it's not all that hard to find, the same name is used online by this diarist for just about everything except messengers. let's all be mature and not start spreading false rumors or even true rumors that can be found in these pages, because that could possibly be the most immature thing one could ever do, and would earn them a very nice silent treatment from the writer.
it has also been said by multiple persons that most of the entries herein are much too long or tedious to deal with. as stated before, the writer will write a lot about some things. this writer also finds it a more accutate way to remember things by writing them down in great detail on most occasions. as stated above, yet again, you have your own free will. you chose to read what you read and if you don't like what you see, click that little "x" in the upper right hand corner. it's not really that hard to do. just don't complain to the diarist that things are too long, things are written in a long winded fashion on purpose. that is exactly what you would hear form her if she were to tell you all of the things that she writes in here, in exactly that form.
yes, there is freedom of speech, so please, if you have something that you would like to say, send it to this address, because that is what your own diary is for. dont have one? well get one. then you too will know why this disclaimer is here.
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.