my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
little survey thingy lisa found and i kinda got it from her. whoever came up with this...thanks!
last updated: february 8, 2003
01. I hurt: people I love most times
02. I love: my friends more than my family
03. I hate: anyone who judges by religion and/or is homophobic
04. I cry: less than this time last year but enough to not be “heartless”
05. I fear: one day having on one to turn to, being physically alone and that i’ll never find love
06. I hope: for my friends and I to be happy
07. I sadden: myself most times
08. I feel alone: a lot less than I used to
09. I kill: anyone who messes with my sisters
10. I talk: quieter than I used to but loud enough to be heard
11. I listen: to my friends when they need me to and to so much music it shouldn’t be legal
12. I break: down and cry every so often
13. I see: what life should be like again
14. I smell: bubble gum o_o;;
15. I taste: see 14
16. I work: to keep my grades up and to keep my friends in good spirits
17. I remember: things that everyone else forgets and some that I’d rather forget
18. I hold: my tiger marie when I sleep
19. I hide: my pain, what little there is left
20. I pray: at least once a day
21. I walk: the halls of sumner Monday through friday
22. I drive: dad’s truck if I do
23. I read: between the lines and into others feelings
24. I burn: matches for the hell of it sometimes and candles for magick
25. I breathe: greatfully for the fact that I can
26. I play: around with friends sometimes
27. I miss: certain people’s smiles
28. I touch: other people when I talk to them
29. I learn: about things that i've never experienced, but secretly want to
30. I feel: more myself than I have in years
31. I know: what I want to be
32. I said: please stay
33. I dream: of love
34. I have: less than some, but much more than I could ever ask for
35. I want: to have somewhere I know I can go when I need to get out of this hell hole
36. I fall: for anyone with gorgeous eyes and a good spirit
37. I wait: impatiently
38. I need: love
39. I live: every day knowing that I might not tomorrow and live the best way I know how for today
40. I die: when someone I love is hurt
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