my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
decided i would put in a couple poems today since i have math homework to eventually do and i dont want to end up not writing.
this is childhood?
the childhood i supposedly had...
i can almost feel it looking back.
it smells like defeat, fear, sadness;
everyone around me having fun,
while i, all alone, am forced to grow up.
it tastes like blood, sweat, tears;
working for all that i want,
nothing simply handed over.
it looks like a lost, lonely girl;
ignored when she speaks,
beaten (by "friends") when she's heard.
it sounds like she's alone, crying;
muffled sobs heard by her pillow
that can never hug her back.
it feels like the worst thing to go through;
the fear, the tears, the loneliness...
more than most kids know.
this childhood i supposedly had...
i wouldn't wish it on anyone.
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