my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i was awoken about thirty minutes ago, right at six...
..my heart shattered twelve minutes later...
..my star is never gonna come for me...
..and now i go try to sleep until forever...
...
i don't care if you think i'm burdening you right this moment. i just... need this immediate reaction to work through things...
and i didn't know things were heading so immediately in that direction... didn't know that i should have expected that so soon...
i'm happy for you, just... in a sad way... that i have to deal with while you're not around... because i want to be happy for you... which i am... i'm just... something else at the same time...
this was gonna be private, but it's not anymore... because you deserve to know... hell, public even... because i can't keep this one in...
we're talking later. you know that, right? after your little nap before work... though more likely after work... even more likely tomorrow... night...
right now
singing: my immortal // piano tribute to evanescence
talking to: you
wishing: murr
feeling: tired and groggy
wanting: -
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.