my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
the sweetest thing is to watch a kitten discovering new things.
sasha brought a kitten over here for me today. her name's sango -elsbe helped me name her. she's a little white calico -photo(s) to be added later on, as my camera is at elsbe's.
she discovered her shadow a few minutes ago, and is pouncing at it all around the living room.
i think sasha just solved a few of my problems by making them melt away when i look in those little blue eyes that are still filled so much with wonder at the world around them.
i cried today while with elsbe and julie, though they didn't know it. and somehow, when i got home and saw that sweet little face waiting for me next to daddy's leg on the couch, everything seemed better.
i remember when kiddy used to make me feel that way, and then she grew distant and disconnected. then milo would wait for me to get home...
..i miss him. sango can't and won't replace him, but she can add to my memories.
right now
singing: so far away // carole king
talking to: sango ^_^
wishing: i weren't still up
feeling: sleepy
wanting: a warm body
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.