my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
so i said i would never do it the first time, but here we go again...
there's even more for me to think about this time than the first time, and i just can't take it. i can't write about most of it here anyway, so there's no sense in my trying to write it. don't go on telling me that i can say anything i want in here... it's not as true as i once thought. if i were to say everything i need to think about for a while, people would be astonished and/or be somewhat unhappy with me. so i must do this again.
give me at least a week. if i'm back before then, then whoopdie doo. i'm not planning on it, but if the urge to write hits me i will... just know that this might pop up again and entry later.
goodbye for now.
right now
singing: break stuff // limp bizkit
talking to: you
wishing: there were longer weekends in the world
feeling: tired
wanting: bed
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.