my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
drove through my first major storm last night. didn't panic. impressed people.
had a wonderful night last night and then this morning on into the afternoon hours due to undisclosed reasons. even with the major storms that were around here, it was nice having someone here through it all... even though it was someone stranded 'cause the car they were driving likely wouldn't have made it home as the water cascaded over the truck when going down the street at twenty to thirty miles per hour in some areas. their little car likely would have been overcome completely.
truck broke down today. massive leak in power steering fluid... and at the time elsbe and i were heading to price chopper to pick up some groceries for daddy. we were turning in and ended up blocking the enterance to anyone turning left into there because the steering locked up. sat there about a half hour with people constantly yelling and flipping us off, along with someone who called me a retard or something. so many people asked if i could get it in neutral and move it as they went by... idiots.
now, if the truck's stopped with hazard lights on, it can't be moved. if i can't turn, i can't move it whilst mid-turn (it had gone partially through the right-hand turn). however, i will gladly jump over that goddamn median and ram your ass if you decide to be an asshole about it all, as my truck wsa a work truck in a past life. after all, i'm in a truck while you're in some little sports car or something. get off your johnson county high horse and realize that cars do break down from time to time -it's not always the fucking battery and you can't always stick it in neutral and coast out of the way.
::sighs::
i've been overly affectionate a lot lately. very glad that elsbe has been receptive to said affection, and has even applied some back to me. very comforting to feel someone there from time to time, especially when used to being alone at night. what was really nice, was my staying around elsbe's living room with her on the couch just now for about an hour talking with her until she started falling asleep... and her wanting me to stay there 'till she was about to sleeping. very calming after the happenings this evening, very cute indeed, and very comfortable and relaxing either way.
falling asleep, didn't really sleep too well last night with the storm and with said person over. g'night.
right now
singing: word up // korn (was on when i got out of the truck..)
talking to: you
wishing: there were longer weekends in the world
feeling: tired
wanting: bed
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