my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
made it through the funeral. not without crying, mind you, but made it through. cried in front of everyone there whilst singing as elsbe... didn't, but made it through. heard a certain friend make a rather loud sobbing noise for the first time in my life, but made it through. took turns consoling each other with elsbe as everything took place, but made it through.
it's raining outside. rather appropriate for my day that i've attempted to take for myself. didn't get one of those last week.
..bye mom.
right now
singing: gravity of love // enigma
talking to: rachel
wishing: i didn't start crying while i was writing this..
feeling: sad
wanting: another week or so
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