my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i got the call at 8:38 when elsbe, julie and i were on the way back here.
they were letting her go.
she said many times that she never wanted machines to keep her alive, so she got her wish.
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to make the world completely correct, milo died today too. he evidnetly got hit by a car this morning. neighbours saw him, but they came back by and he was gone, but he had been flat when they saw him.
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it's just me and daddy with the fish and outdoor doggies now.
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i can't write.
at all.
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i'm gone now.
right now
singing: nothing, oddly enough
talking to: sasha, julie, elsbe. i love them...
wishing: ...
feeling: scared
wanting: you fucking tell me
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