my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i've been productive today. not only have i gone on that rant today, but i got this accomplished by typing it out while listening to the song a few minutes ago.
very beautiful version of this song that i'm willing to share if anyone wants to hear it. it's a little off key in a couple of spots, but it's well worth it; it seems to reek of emotion, and it's just a girl and her piano as opposed to a girl and her band with a piano thrown in as well, or a girl and her piano with an orchestra in the background. rather raw, and you can tell that it's in earlier years.
i'm so tired of being here,
supressed by all my childish fears.
i would give the very breath from my chest
to give you all the things that my mind couldn't bear.
and if you have to leave,
i wish that you would just leave
'cause your presence still lingers here,
and it won't leave me alone.
these wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears,
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears,
i held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
-now i'm bound by
the life you left behind.
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams;
your voice it chased away
all the sanity in me.
these wounds won't seem to heal,
this pain is just too real,
there's just too much that time cannot erase.
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears,
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears,
and i held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.
i'd love to walk away and pull myself out of the rain,
but i can't leave without you.
i'd love to live without the constant fear and endless doubt,
but i can't live without you.
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears,
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears,
and i held your hand through all of these years,
but you still have all of me.
me, oh... (x3)
alternate version of my immortal // amy lee
right now
singing: tourniquet // evanescence
talking to: myself
wishing: almost wish school would start
feeling: better
wanting: another ev concert
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