my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
pre-party of seeing the village and then chipotle was interesting. didn't much care for the movie... for some reason i always find horror films predictable. this one? just as predictable as others i've seen. didn't get too scared, jumped maybe once just because of loud noises and not because of what was in the film itself. her, julie, and sasha were all jumping onto each other fifteen minuts into it. then chipotle, where shannon was supposed to meet us, was a bit tense for a while. it got better, involving an ice cube fight between the four of us for a while. fun times were had by all.
took sash back to get her car as she had to leave, and then the remaining three of us went to mission mall to kill time before going to lazer tag. ten for five dollar sale at claire's... went a little overboard with some stuff, but got a rather pretty necklace that i can wear around her mom. we called shannon a few times, she wasn't coming to lazer tag. that in and of itself made for a tense situation for a while and for us wanting to smite her for saying definately for the past few weeks then backing out at the last possible moment.
let me just say now that i don't believe i shall be doing lazer tag ever again -unless she does it for a birthday party again. didn't have all that great of a time doing it, and i killed my knees. she shot me sixteen times in the second round when we weren't on the same team anymore. though i got the generator three times near the end and attempted to help bring my team (of four people as compared to just her and julie) score up some more. wasn't fun until i started actually getting things hit. was rather frustrated at the whole idea... especially her mother and i being on the same teams both times. that was weird for me. though her mother invited me to the hike type thing they're going on tomorrow, which should be interesting as her mother hasn't been nice to me like that in about two months.
drove around just me, her, and julie for a while after lazer tag [read as: driving randomly around the city for about three hours]. was much fun. more fun than lazer tag. there was singing and such, though i was mainly just relaxing in the back seat. gave me time to clear my mind and enjoy my friends.
julie dropped her and i off here. i went ahead and caved, giving her the birthday presents a day early... even though i'd sworn i wouldn't until her birthday. she liked 'em all. i was rather creative with how i gave them to her. gave her the card and note, telling herto go in my room and read then come to the room i was in when i was done. she came in and immediately gave me a hug, with a chipotle bag of things greeting her -along with the bow i'd stuck on my head.
i have to get up at like six or six thirty. should go now. need to try and sleep, especially if i'm going to be walking for like seven hours or so tomorrow. that'll kill me... but i can't complain about it or anything. her mom'd giving me a chance... and that's saying something.
right now
singing: so far away // carole king
talking to: you
wishing: i weren't still warm
feeling: worn
wanting: sleep
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