my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i had a dream that some random guy named steven was here. in my house. i don't know where he came from, but he was hot, and mom allowed him in my room with me alone.
i remember laying down with him and finding out his name, asking does that mean i can call you steve? while grinning and looking into his dark brown eyes. he had on what appeared to be a sumner academy choir shirt, though it looked the same on the front as it did on the back with an added 'breast pocket' that was in the middle of nowhere on his back.
i had to go to the bathroom, so he went out in the living room and was on the couch with daddy while mom was in daddy's chair for some reason(?). i came out and sat in mom's chair, and when he turned around and noticed me we went back in my room. he said something about me being his crazy girlfriend or something like that, and i smiled and kissed him (o_O;;). his shirt had changed to a band shirt of some kind, but i couldn't tell what band.
out of nowhere, it was my cousin joe, and we were laying down talking and such as if it were normal for my 'boyfriend' to disappear and for him to appear in his place.
even more off the wall, mom dropped me off at advanced auto parts on johnson drive because steven was going to meet me there or something. i went inside and elsbe's mom was working there - in elsbe's quiktrip uniform - and yelled at me for something i don't even remember. i told her that i was there to meet my boyfriend, and she didn't believe me and made me leave.
before steven could get there, daddy showed up and i think ashley was with him for some reason. i went over to the truck and saw that the left front tire was missing. so i put a tire back on it (o_o), we got in the truck, and left after another confrontation with elsbe's mom.
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can anyone else figure out where this came from?
i'm guessing that steven is just... a random hot guy, actually. someone who i could pretend to like or go out with to appease elsbe's mom? though in the dream i actually had feelings for him, so i'm not too sure what that's supposed to mean. and the sumner choir shirt? i know this much - i want to be with a musician if at all possible, brownie points if said musician can sing.
this is just weird.
right now
singing: nothing.. yet
talking to: no one
wishing: thursday woudl hurry up
feeling: amused
wanting: more sleep
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