my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
she told me earlier that i would make a really good girlfriend for someone. not her, but someone in general.
even after her mom accidently ran over the rose i earned by being in choir - that made me feel better, if only for a few moments. for some reason it felt really nice and... genuine coming from her.
i've been thinking a lot over the past twenty four hours. i still haven't really come to too many conclusions. i need a girlfriend so i can aim my extra affection at someone, but that's been a given for a while now though.
she left here a little bit ago, i've never seen her that tired before. if her mom wouldn't flip out about it i would have made her stay here overnight. that, and i want to make her feel better in any way i can... which i don't think i can do at this point, but dammit i can make an effort at it.
i'm going to go watch judging amy and er from this week and think some more about some things... and remember that i'd make a good girlfriend for someone.
right now
singing: sweetest goodbye // maroon 5
talking to: the ninja
wishing: just wishing in general
feeling: longing
wanting: that someone
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