my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
me: oh, i had a dream in which anyone i knew was getting killed when they'd come in contact with me in person.
me: and then i got shot.
me: yeah.
the girl: that is freaky
me: yiis, that it is.
me: someone was horrifically pissed at me for something..
me: i didn't die when i got shot though. watched you and her die -_-;;..
the girl: how did we die?
me: ..shooting/torture....
the girl: ahhhhh
me: yeeeah..
me: was muchly happy to wake up.
me: i think the last thing is i was laying in some field on my stomach and i felt myself bleeding out..
yes, that's what i woke up to this morning. still not entirely too sure what brought that on, but it happened nonetheless. i'd almost wish for the other dreams i'd had recently if it got rid of things like that. they're not bad they're just... things that i don't need to be dreaming of.
i'm still excited from yesterday, but i've had this sudden wave of loneliness wash over me that hurts really bad. i'm not too entirely sure why, but i can't shake it. if i knew what would fix it, i'd gladly do it.
totally unrelated to anything else said so far, but this is the shirt mom got me and had no idea why i wanted it, aside from my love of cherries. i shall be wearing it tomorrow.
right now
singing: the red // chevelle
talking to: the ninja
wishing: for a freak snow storm
feeling: lonesome
wanting: someone, anyone
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.
