my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
already wrote an entry pre-dating this one, but oh well. i'll stick it in later on... like tomorrow night or sunday, as i won't be here.
i likely couldn't sleep even if i wanted to right now. i feel... well i still feel like i did before, but to a lesser degree. though i feel a bit better since her visit on the way home. i love how she can just show up and talk about seemingly nothing and make everything seem better.
yeah... i had something to say, but it disappeared.
i have to get up in less than eight hours. i have to leave here in nine and a half hours. i don't want to go. you can't make me. nee ner nee ner nee ner.
...
yeah, i have to go no matter what. but dammit, i wish i had someone riding down with me. i'm scared.
...
really going for the night this time. honest.
right now
singing: piece by piece // strata
talking to: you
wishing: i weren't alone
feeling: horridly alone
wanting: someone... anyone...
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