my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i've been awake since two this morning. i'm not really tired, just a bit overstrung. sorry to anyone who crosses my path until i go to bed tonight, i don't mean to bite your head off.
so i'm rather mad at someone right now. it was announced by said someone that i'd had a sex dream about her in the past. i don't remember telling this person about the dream i had about her. i told her when i got home and she freaked. hell, casey knew about it in seventh hour and is wanting me to print it out for her to read tomorrow sometime.
also, another problem i'm having.
what the shit is with everyone asking me about her all the time? yes, she basically lives here when not at work or school, but she has a cell phone. she leaves it on eighty percent of the time. if she doesn't have it on, she can see that she missed your call. try using that number. and if you never even knew her in the first place, just leave it alone. she's not my special friend or anything, nor is she my friend with benefits. she's my sister. yes i happen to like said person, but i did before she was like a sister to me... and i can't make that go all the way away like i want to. kinda hard to do. 'tis but a fond dream to wake up one day and have all of those feelings for her gone, but alas, it won't be happening any time soon.
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and this, my friends, is all i'm good for today. my back hurts and i'm being a whiney, loud bitch. you don't wanna hear about it... especially about today's choir rant. very long winded and stupid, but actually has good support. oh well.
right now
singing: leaving on a jet plane // me first and the gimme gimmes
talking to: you
wishing: i slept
feeling: bitchy
wanting: someone
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