my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
alright, hopefully this is the last part. sorry for any spelling/typographical errors, i was just informed that i'm leaving in about a half hour.
after about a half hour of talking with my parents, we said goodbye to each other. we toned it down from earlier as we were in fornt of my parents, and she went over and lay down in front of that building as we left.
why are you laying there?
so i can think. i can look up at the stars and think for a while. don't worry about me, i'll talk to you again tomorrow night, right?
erm.. i'm not sure right now. here, take this.
i wrote down my phone number and address for her and walked over hadning it to her, telling her to use it whenever she wanted to. i was crouched down over her and she was looking up at me, and she pulled my head down and kissed me before we had to leave.
i'll call you tonight.
pormise?
yep. no matter what.
okay, i'll try to be here tomorrow night... i need to find a ride to and from.
oh, i think that can be arranged.
she gave me that smile again, right as mom yelled for me to go back to the truck. i kissed her cheek and told her i'd talk to her later and left. i didn't want to leave amy, i felt the best i had in some time when i was with her. i thought while riding back home about how it had been the best two nights of my life... and how i was going to tell 'her' about it. she's be so jealous since i not only got to go to two concerts for free, but i knew amy lee... let alone kissed her a few times. i remembered right then that amy was the one female she would consider 'banging', and chuckled. then i commenced to thinking again.
no, amy's not the kinda girl you 'bang'. she's the kind of girl you love. there's no way anyone should be able to simply 'bang' her and be over with it.
..............
this is where it started getting weird... and i really don't see the rest as necessary. for some reason, it mixed with law and order and something had happened to her or something... and she came to my house, in my room, and sat with me telling me what had happened. i held her and all that fun stuff, then i woke up.
yes, i'd say i had a pretty active night of dreaming. and i believe i'll make a fanfic out of this later on... after i write the next chapter of that inuyasha one... there aren't really any evanescence ones out there, so i get to be part of a rare breed. here's hoping i don't screw up.
she's on her way here to go shopping, so i'm gonna go. i had more to write, but i think three entries about the same thing in one day is enough for anyone.
right now
singing: surrender // evanescence
talking to: ash, kristen
wishing: ::sigh::
feeling: cuddly, still
wanting: ..dreams to come true
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