my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
so i'm sitting in the art room actually signed in to diaryland. i didn't know i could do this. muahaha, i'm a cool bitch like that sometimes.
i don't know why, but something has posessed my parents to want to go to attichson(sp) to get some taco john's after school. that's a good hour and a half in the truck with them total.
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yeah, i think this is gonna kill me. i'm currently in the process if trying to find someone who will come with me. they'd said i could bring elsbe, but she has to work today. kristen's working, katrina's babysitting, meggie's working, jessica's working (according to boone)... i believe my only hope as of right now is amy olbert. this could be muchly interesting. even better if she ends up being able to come with.
as of now, i'm still in a relatively good mood from last night. checked my email this morning and it was still at the preview of the email elsbe sent me yesterday. i grinned and had the warm and fuzzies. those are wonderful compared to the crying i had at about the same time yesterday.
i'm feeling rather unproductive right now though. everyone else is working on some art project and me? i'm sitting here and mr. mobley's computer writing an entry on diaryland. but if you think about it though, this is my art. writing is what i do, along with singing. drawing just seems to be something that i do on the side sometimes when the mood strikes me. i don't like being told that said mood needs to strike me four times in a semester. yes, that's a long time for a school year, but a relatively short time in the span of a life. i do'nt know, i just generally have to be in a mood to draw something. usually when i do draw something, it has to do with a song i've heard in the recent past or with a poem that i want to write, maybe even just a lyric or something like one in my head.
i look at the clock and realise that in ten minutes, i'm going to more than likely face the wrath of robey. she evidently had a talk with kristen about getting me to kmea practices yesterday. i'm sorry, i had a full time sds meeting yesterday after school. kristen told me that she said something like funny, sds seems to have something every day of the week. i'm sorry if kmea isn't a priority for me right now. it's not like it's a requirement for the class that i try out or anything, and i'm going to the practice on saturday morning with kristen anyway. i figure two hours spent on the same three pieces and i'll have them down. that's how it worked with the umkc thing a few weeks ago. i had the music in an hour, they just spend the rest of the day practicing with everyone together.
i heard wherever you will go on the radio just now. thought of lisa and all the things that happened that year... nostalgia's a bitch.
though the warm and fuzzies are still present. very good thing.
i should probably go. i think leslie wants to use this computer or something... and since i'm not really using it for something that's actually productive for any classes i'm just wasting a resource. so.. yeah. nice writing in the middle of the day on a school day though. i might need to do this a litlte more often, if at all possible.
right now
singing: wherever you will go // the calling
talking to: katrina, megan
wishing: it were friday already
feeling: warm and fuzzy ::grins::
wanting: to have someone to come with this afternoon
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