my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
yanno, i really don't think chicago was all that great. yes there were moments when i liked it but it's just a little too busy for me. kristen and i ended up both able to go see it tonight. we would have invited elsbe but she wasn't at home. i felt kinda bad because i think we were going to do something tonight, but how often do i get to do anything with kristen anymore?
through the whole movie we made comments back and forth basically coming down to neither one of us really liking it all that much. there were quite a few times when we told each other that something was disturbing. tonight marks the first time when i've had fun watching a movie that i didn't particularly like.
i got home to find elsbe had called about ten minutes after i left. when dad'd picked me up i'd remembered i was supposed to go see that movie with her so i figured i'd try calling her back but she wasn'tthere. i hope she got the message to call me tomorrow... i wonder if she actually got some pants bought today.
when kristen had called her earlier it felt a little awkward trying to talk for a while. when we met up for the movie it felt normal again. there weren't huge pauses or anything when we talked... i've missed that for a wihle now. i'd ask her if she wants to have a movie night over spring break but she'll be either in nashville or one of the dakotas with bobbie that week. ::sigh:: there goes that idea.
just a general question. if you don't know all that much about a guy and you've no idea when you'll get to see him, can you consider him a boyfriend? everyone around me seems to think so. sure i'll joke and say joe's my boyfriend but i'm not sure if i can mean it. i don't really know what he thinks of me, i don't know much about him... i probably won't know what to think until we either get to see each other or talk on the phone for a while.
why'd i bring it up? he and elsbe talked a while yesterday. turns out he knows some people she knows and all that. she asked me if she could send him a picture (?) and sent him one. he said she was pretty cute; when she said that before i could help myself i said go elsbe! it wasn't till after she said that it kind of concerned/paranoid her that i remembered she was talking to joe. honestly it doesn't bother me because
a) i don't know what to classify him as, and
b) he was only telling the truth anyway.
i'm tired and confusing myself, g'night.
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