my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
read the pervious entry to know what i'm talking about.
mom, gwen and i got in the truck and headed to the plaza. we got somewhat lost in it trying to find where i was supposed to be, but eventually found seville square. as they pulled away, mom shouted out the window we'll consider picking you up later on! and she really meant that, i could tell it in her voice. it was about six thirty and i was the only one there. i sat down on the steps that were nearby and watched everyone walking by, looking like kansas city's mini new york. i looked around at the lights that i hadn't felt such wonder from since i was very young. i actually started to feel better. mom and gwen came arund the block and told me that everyone was at the mc donald's down the street. i started walking down there and saw who they were talking about. it wasn't them, so i started back to where i was, waving at mom and gwen as they drove by.
after sitting there until about seven, when we were all supposed to meet up, i started crossing the street with a group of people to sit on the other side, when everyone was coming towards me. the only people who had shown were elsbe, kristen, shannon, heather, tiffany, bobbie and i, along with elsbe's mom and aunt and tiffany's mom. as we crossed the street, kristen told me that my mom had called her cell phone asking if they'd found me because i'd just "disappeared." evidently they didn't see me wave at them as i walked back to where i was. kristen gave me her phone, and i almost had to hold it a foot away from my head because she was yelling at me. i told her i had to go because of kristen's minutes and just hung up, then went over and sat by one of the fountains, away from everyone. ms. roberson showed up, so i got up and went over by elsbe, kristen and shannon.
we ended up standing there singing for maybe a half hour, and then going to mc donald's. well, they had a huge line and we didn't want to stand in it forever, so we asked a police officer where starbucks was. evidently, he had no clue what he was talking about, because we ended up lost. it was really fun getting lost though, cause we were just walking around talking and singing various things that came to mind... and running past traffic at crosswalks. hehe, i won most of the time =). bobbie ended up going into the closest store and asking where starbucks was, and we finally got there. we all stood around drinking our hot chocolates and coffees for a while, and kristen, elsbe, bobbie and i went and sat outside because it was really warm inside. we sat out there talking about various things for a while, laughing most of the time when the others came back out. we decided on going to barnes and nobles because kristen had broght her gift card that she would more than likely not get another chance to use.
kristen and i seperated from the group for a while looking around in the book store. we got to the calander section and she found one that she really liked... and then found a celtic one. i'd wondered how long it'd be before she spotted that. just walking around looking at books with her felt like it used to be when she and i were around each other outside of school. no stupid little fighting, neither of us getting on the other's case, just actualy being around each other and liking it. i think that needs to happen a little more often.
elsbe and bobbie found us, and we all went upstairs to look for magazines because i need some rock posters for my room. i found what i thought would be a good one and they found all the girlie magazines. ...oh bestill my beating heart. lol, they kept finding half naked chicks and saying stuff like this one's for you landa. erm... i dont think they get the idea that i'm not exactly interested in half naked chicks or anything like that, and that it's more personality and eyes and faces and all that. i couldn't care less what some chick's boobs look like, honestly. oh well, it was fun.
we all went back downstairs to pay for our stuff and went outside... minus shannon and heather. we stood out there for about five to ten minutes waiting on them when bobbie and elsbe went in to find them. i asked kristen to use her cell phone so that i could ask my parents to come get me when elsbe's mom said she could take me home. so kristen told my mom that, and she was told that they wouldn't be there when i got home, that they were going to go get food. of course, mom yells at me all day from the time i get home and promptly makes sure that i'm left alone.
it was about this time that i realised that the magazine that i'd picked up was one from the uk. most of the bands in there i have never heard of, aside from the very long article about sum 41. the only real plus to buying that was the free cd and foo fighters poster. and i spent about six bucks on that thing when i could have bought circus and another magazine with that. oh the joys of money and magazines.
riding in the van with elsbe, shannon, heather, kristen and bobbie was cool, hehe. various little conversations broke out and elsbe got her cd player and sang shakira. i swear, she's a goddess because she (elsbe) can do this really fast spanish thing. lol, and i told her that she's a goddess just about every time that she did it too. there was a lot of talk about what we'd do to each other's graves if some of us died, and that got rather... interesting?
we got to elsbe's house to drop off kristen and bobbie, when elsbe realised that she could just give me my christmas gift then. she went in the house, stood there and put it in a wal-mart bag and came back out. hehe, she got me a leopard print pillow that's fuzzy and squishy ^_^. i had to wait on her to get done with what she was doing for abour five minutes before giving her a hug. i swear she only bought it to sleep on or lay on when she's over here, lol. she'd said that she saw it and thought of how "tiger-y" it is and thought of me. hehe, i pointed out that it wasn't a tiger and got oh shut up landa. heeee. i ended up sleeping with it last night and actually still had a hold of it in the morning. hey, what can i say? it's fuzzy and squishy and dimitri's starting to look a little over-loved.
and with that, i shall go for now and write an entry that's actually meaningful later on. by the way, merry yule!
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