my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i had the most amazing and real feeling dreams last night..
it started out, i was walking home from my bus stop after school. i got the mail, and went in the front door. there was a chair sitting in the middle of the living room, and a cat that i've never seen before on it. i saw some bags over to the right, like someone's travel bags and stuff. i asked mom what was going on, and she told me to turn to my right. i looked over, and lisa was sitting on the end of the coffee table by the tv, grinning at me. i went over, gave her a hug, and asked her how she got here. she said that she was taking a break from everything, so she got to come here.
we go in my room, and i'm throwing my school stuff on my bed. she starts looking around at all the stuff on my walls, and kinda picks on me abou tthe harry potter stuff, but i know she doesn't mean it. then she sees that i put up the tiger wall thing she sent me, and she gets a real big smile on her face.
we go in the back room, and i give her the one chair that's in there, while i sit on the matress thingy that's folded up in the corner. we start talking, and she gets up and sits by me, leaning her head on my shoulder. heee.
next thing i know, it's time for bed, since i have school the next day. mom tells me that she called the school, and it's okay for lisa to come as a visitor too, we just have to run by the office to get her a pass.
i think the sleeping arrangements end up me attempting to sleep on the left side of my bed (which isn't all tha thard for me but, feh) and lisa on the right. i didn't get to sleep for a while, because i kinda watched her. (yes, i watch people sleep sometimes.)
in the morning, i got ready for school, and got lisa up a little later than i got up, since she didn't have to do as much as me in the morning. it was a wednesday, so we'd be going to all classes, and anyone who'd heard about her would be able to meet her. i dont know how we got there, i think mom got up and took us, but next thing i know, we're at school walking in the side door. for the most part, she's just following me around to my locker, then i took her to the office to get her visitor pass. after that, we went outside.
i knew that would be an interesting experience, given that half of the people out there haven't payed attention lately. they might not even notice i was there, let alone with lisa. well, casey, meg and elsbeth came over when i got out there, and asked who was with me. kristen got there a little later, and bobbie came over too. of course, matt came over, put an arm around her shoulder, and was singing. she knows all about him, so she didn't freak out, hehe. all my friends liked her.
we went through the school day, then went back home. i asked her how long she was staying, and she said she didn't know. we listened to music and talked again like we'd done the night before. there was a lot of hugging involved, since we could finally actually do it.
that time, when we went to bed, we did a little earlier, in case one of us couldn't sleep, lol. we lay thre whispering to each other for a while, and she said goodnight landa, i love you. as i said i love you and g'night to her too, i felt myself drifting off. and when i woke up in the dream, i woke up in real life.
it was over.
*sigh* it might not come true, but it is a nice thought, isn't it?
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