my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
as of about an hour ago, i've been cut loose. my case file is practically closed...
i'm a normal teenager now.
i've evidently got my depression under control, and now i'm dealing with the problems that a person my age would normally deal with.
and according to her, i'm a good normal teenager. i dont drink, i dont smoke, i dont do drugs, i dont sleep around, i'm not pregnant...i'm more normal than normal O_o. and i'm supposedly a good kid, and i'm nice and generous and caring and all that, all of which i knew since day one.
but, she made my mom see that today.
she made my mother see that i'm not the selfish, self-righteous, rebellious teenager that my mother thought she had. i'm my own person, i dont have to follow with everyone else, and it doesn't really matter to me if i'm accepted by the preps and jocks and other popular people.
and i'm always going to be grateful to billie for that, if nothing else. she made mom see who i really am, and that's just about all that matters to me right now.
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.