my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
it's been a while since i've written about a dream in here.
well guess what.
i'm writing about one.
...
it felt amazing actually. i was a bird, just soaring along, not caring about anything. it was a kind of freedom that i can only dream of (no pun intended). it was better than performing, which is really up there for me.
i was (of course) a blue bird. i swerved around a lot, went in circles..just enjoyed my freedom of the skies. then i saw these doves and followed them around. there were three of them, and they flew in a straight line going across. i swear that i heard them singing, not like a bird, but like people, so i was intrigued and tailed them for a while. but eventually, i was alone again, just doing loops and swerving, having fun.
and that was it. that was all that dream was. but that was just from taking a nap, so that could be a reason, lol.
but last night, i had this kinda weird dream. it was at this skating rink that i've never been to before, but i seemed to know my way around. there were a bunch of people from school there, and it was almost like a school skating party like i had in elementary school, but i could tell that we were older, like we are now.
i went around for a while looking for someone to go talk to, and i wasn't looking ahead and literally ran into kasai. we both fell down, and kathy skated by, said something, but i dont remember what, and went away again.
me and sai stayed together for a while, then i saw kristen and she came over with us. we all went to sit down for a while and get drinks, and bobbie showed up. she did something to piss one of us off, and kristen kicked her...with her skate on =).
the only other thing i remember is watching the guys mess around in the center of the rink for a while while i was playing video games and stuff in the arcade.
again, kristen shows up in my dreams. but, new addition this time, sai poped up too. i'm still wondering why kristen is in, like, ninety percent of my dreams. i still find that somewhat freaky...
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