my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
sorry about that entry last night, heh. i went to that thing yesterday, and found out that i went to the wrong person. mom made the appointment with my pediatrician and not a mental health person. that kinda pissed me off.
well, this morning, i was woken up at about eleven and told to come into the linving room for some reason. turns out taht kristen had tried to call at about six in the morning to talk to me for a while. it was aboout noon her time, heh. she said that she was almost out of money, hehe, and that she "knows it's pretty early where (i am) since she got the machine but figured (she'd) try anyway." dammit i miss her so much. it was good to hear her voice though, even on the answering machine...
anyway, i woke up earlier this morning for no reason whatsoever, so i came back here to check emails and all that before going back to bed. i then found this entry glaring back at me. i really thought she was pissed off at me. i couldn't control the way i was last night, just like i can't control it any other time. that wasn't even my worst...just the worst she's ever seen. and, like i said, i'm just fine today. well, except for my mom being a bitch again, but other than that, i'm great.
lisa got home today and told me that she wasn't pissed or anything, and today has been a pretty normal day actually. if you wanna hear something that's really off and really bad compared to normal, go here, i sang. it sucks, heh. we traded back and forth a bunch of songs today for no apparent reason. there was some pretty funny stuff...a lot of fuck yous and shits involved, hehe.
yes, i know this isn't a real entry, but i can't concentrate right now. it's better than nothing at all, eh?
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