my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
yes everyone, i got the new layout done today, which leaves tomorrow to do my outline and note cards for mr. prier's class, because my frigging computer died with the introduction to my essay on it -_-. at least i dont need THAT on monday. o well.
i know, there wasn't a true entry today, but i'm putting a song on here that's kinda how i feel right now. here goes:
Josie & The Pussycats // You Don't See Me
This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
And tumblin' and breakin'
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I wish you would
This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could
that's kinda how i feel about some of my friends right now...or my life, i haven't quite figured out which one it more fits with. it feels like a lot of my friends dont appreciate what i try and do for them. it's like, i try and try to help them out whenever they call, and yet when i go to them they're nowhere to be seen.
as far as it fitting with my life...it's like my inner-self talking to me. there's so many things that i am completely different about than how i show them. i supposedly just give off the effect that i dont like hugs and all, and that i dont like getting close to people (not like that). the way i am and the way my inner-self is telling me i should be are two different things.
yes, i would be the one to over-analyze a song like this...
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.