my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
well like i said before, april showed up at an imopprotune time last night, which resulted in a lack of sleep, not a good thing.
mr. prier really pissed me off today. i dont know how he did it more than normal, but i was totally pissed when i left his room. we had to take notes on something, and he had one of the things too far over on the overhead, and i can't see in the first plac,e and i was still trying to write it down when he took it off. i asked if i could see that sheet , and he said no, we're moving on! youre screwed! that might just have triggered my behavior for the rest of that class period. lots of mumbling under the breath and fuck yous, kiss my ass, and bite mes were said today.
and i now have a new embarassing moment for school. in science today, we went out to the football field to look at rocks and find fossils. well, they redid the track sometime this year, and i haven't been on it before, so i was jumping around on it cause it's rubberized. after running around and jumping for a while, kristen and bobie encouraged me to try the long jump, for the hell of it. so, i started running about halfway down the path, jumped, landed...and rolled. i fell over, i forget how, and rolled off and out of the pit. the ENTIRE class saw taht and started laughing. i had sand on me EVERYWHERE. kristen laughed, and offered me help to get up. i just kinda sat there for a couple minutes, cause that ended up hurting like hell. at least she said sorry for laughing, lol. i would too, cause i know i'd end up laughing if she did something like that, but i'd say sorry about it.
at break we talked, as usual. she told me something really stupid, that i remind her of a frigging bunny -_-. but, she then told me that people say that they think she reminds her of a cat. and i can't see why not, cause her eyes are incredible! she's about the only one i know who has naturally yellow eyes, they're purdy. (yes, remember people, i like other people's eyes!) feh, then she started the bunny jokes again, i think i'll just leave this part with that.
seventh hour today, we had try-outs for the solo in on my own. and i tried out, voluntarily for once. i ended up paired up with savanah, and i was told that people could barely hear me. *sigh* i doubt that i'll get it since no one could hear me. but, after i tried out, i noticed kristen singing along a little. i asked if she wanted to try out and she said that no one was left to sing with her. so i offered to do so, and she said no, nevermind. oy.
since i stayed after for the study session for hassig with kristen, we walked there together, and talked. heh, half of that time we were singingthat song. dammit, she has a great voice! i seriously think she should have tried out. but, she told me she'd more than likely freeze up on stage if she DID get it. *sigh* i remember being like that.
i didn't get home till about five, and i talked to lisa for as long as i could today. ended up having to leave for a while to go get something for school, so that cut down on time some. she changed her layout cause she was starting to think that it sucks. i analyzed it for her, about how it tells who she really is and all that, as if i had never known her. that old layout tells a lot about her, but i think i'll leave it up to her to put up what i said on her diary if she wants to, because only people who read her diary would know what i was tlaking about..and i just think that would be her thing to put up.
we were saying bye, and her mom grounded her for tomorrow. dammit.i really am starting to dislike that woman more every day. i mean, c'mon, are all mothers supposed to hate me or something?? ashley's mom used to (i think), methinks kristen's mom does, and lisa's mom and i evidently have a mutual hatred towards each other. heh, wonder what she's say if she found out i was losing weight...
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