my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
*translation: floating in the heavens, beautiful evening star. the german piece which we (the choir) have to sing at competition
well, there's about an hour before i'll be up at harmon changing in one of the girls' bathrooms, cause i refuse to walk into that school in the dress i borrowed from my grandmother. it's very much like a moo-moo, hence the i'm-not-wearing-that-thing-in-without-my-robe-over-it attitude towards it. feh, sometimes you gotta sacrifice for the things you love *_*.
right now, i'm in my favorite shirt and khakis, waiting on mom to get up and ready so we can go, even though it's only about a five to ten minute drive. i want to hear some other choirs first before we have to go. i'm giving up two hours of my life on a saturday morning, and i dont get to sing my favorite song. like i think i may have said before, kristen and i opted out of the second song cause none of the other altos would. there's too many people in our choir, so were going down to two groups...28 people to 24. which means only a few people dont sing both times. i know how much i'm kinda bad at the german, and yet i had to opt out for my favorite and best song. grr...some things just piss me off. see, i could come home right after singing, but i'm staying there ot cheer on the second group at 10:50, and to find out our scores between 11:30 and 11:45. so, it might even be two and a half hours cause mom's gotta come back and pick me up from wherever she is. o joy which is my life.
feh, why do nerves decide to strike right before these things? it's like, i forget that things are even happening until the day they occur. then i get all nervous and stuff within that hour of time before. heh, today it's two hours, cause we're meeting at 8:45 for warm ups, we dont sing till 10:30. it's regionals, of course it makes me more nervous than anything else, who wouldn't it do that to? well, except most of the choir that did it last year. i and all the freshman, and a few other sophomores are newbies to women's ensemble this year, (well not anymore, the year's about over) so we didn't have things like this. kristen, ashley, meggie, most of my other friends in there have. theyre all like "o, it's just like any other concert." except for the most part no parents, in their place some judges that will critique the hell out of us and who are the only ones standing in the way of our going to state.
i have yet to hear of a sumner academy women's ensemble going to state, at least in the three years i've been there. i think it'd be cool, but the fact that we're singing in the morning when we generally practice and all at about one thirty to three is going to be a nice little obstacle. heh, i slept in, which i didn't want to do, and my voice is shit right now. soon as i get off here, nice little round of singing with cds and the radio in my room.
well, my mom's getting pissy at me to clean this room. ugh, john (her friend) is coming over to do some shit to the other computer like right after i get home, and she wants this room to look nice. so much for my warm ups. thanks mom, you just cost the choir some points. (sorry to everyone who has no idea what the ehll i'm tlaking about in this entry! just had no other place to write all this!) love ya'll, bye.
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