my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
read the entry before this one to get it at all, lol. AND, i'm so sorry if this is just rambling or makes no sence at all, cause right now, i'm too happy to care, i just need to let it out!!
alright everybody, i'll tell you what all happened...saving the best for almost the last *_*. one clue, i'm extremely excited right now!
alright, we had a horrible practice beforehand cause we had to stay in their gym where EVERYONE was practicing. bands, orchestras, choirs...it was hell trying to hear the little keyboard they had us practicing on, let alone one another. right before we were to go in, tiffany gets pissed off and runs off crying cause she had no idea if she was supposed to sing that song or not, and everyone was telling her what to do and what not to do. bobbie was being her bossy self and was one of them. well, she met us where we were supposed to go in and got back in line. i got her feeling better doing my little flying thingy with my choir robe. the arms are big enough, it seems like you can frigging take off with them, so i did that a while and cheered her up (sound effects and all *_*). we got in there, and they had let parents in. only one that was realy familiar was ashley's mom and little brother, then there was josh. we sang the german, and did pretty good, we were confident that was a good score.
there ended up being no time in between the two performances to go change cause i didn't sing the next one. so kristen, savanah and i all went back in and sat down to watch them. they came in, and got on the risers. it honestly looked like a few of them were death warmed over, cause they had no facial expression whatsoever. when the altos came in, they were really loud on the soft part, and the cut offs were terrible...it went t-t-t-t-t all the way down the line on one of them.
they got finished and we were let out. i sat with ashley and her mom a while, talked to kristen, all that. then mom came back to pick me up. well, they hadn't postedthe scores yet. they posted the scores for the first time...we got a 2. no state. everyone was all disappointed, but i'm all like "it isn't that bad, it's still a great score!" well, i'm a first year in there, so bobbie went off on me cause it wasn't a good score and all. i got some nasty looks for saying that from other people too.
we all stayed around to find out the other score. i asked mo if i could stay there and listen to josh at 1:10 since he'd listened to ours. it was only an hour, and i only live a mile and a half away, i could walk home. she said yes and took my stuff, i had changed. josh and i walked around a while cause everyone had started ignoring me, and we decided to walk down to circle b (store about a half mile away) together cause he had over an hour to blow, and the scores from the second time hadn't been posted yet. but, he did tell me about his scores from playing his violin...he got two ones! two medals!
so i'm walking around in my own neighborhood with a guy in a full suit while i'm dressed down like i normally am...that's the definition of feeling awkward. he's actually a pretty good guy away from everyone else ^^. he's got a girlfriend, so i'm no even thinking that, but he's a sweetie. it was fun talking to him to and from though, hehe.
we get back, and about five minutes later they put up our scores. there were like five or six of us left, and ashley snuck her way up to see. i think it was me, her, kim, kristy, jennifer and heather. all of a sudden, we heard that familiar scream come from the middle of that group of people...i'm thinking "god/dess we did that bad? we got a 5 or something?" she comes back over...WE GOT A ONE! WOMEN'S ENSEMBLE IS GOING TO STATE!!!
we all ran up and down the hallway (literally RAN) a bunch of times...i think i ran a half mile today, lol. we were really trying to find mrs. roberson, and burning off the energy rush. ashley danced up and down a hallway ro two till we found the director's room. she poked her head in to mrs. roberson and said "hey roberson, we got a one!" and we all started yelling again, while there was a performance going on in the next room, lol. she came out in the hallway and hugged us all and we walked back.
i found josh and told him, we jumped up and down yelling "i/she got a one!"
so, i hung around so i could see the chamber singers since josh had sat through our group. right after their group, i started walking the mile and a half home, cause i could tell from hearing and seeing that they had to have gotten a one. (heh, i did three miles today.)
i got home, and mom asked what happened. i told her, jumped up and down, and she told me kristen had called. heh, i called her back, and she was about to leave to get her hair cut. i told her to wait a minute, i had to tell her something. then i said, "i'm sorry i have to be the first to tell you this sis but...WE'RE GOING TO STATE!" while running/spinning around my living room. she yelled in my ear, lol. it was fun being able to tell her, hehe.
well guys, i gotta go, i get a feeling i make no sence in this entry at all, but right now i'm in a state of euphoria and rarely do i make sence like this. BUT...i can honestly say...this is the first time in a long time i've been totally happy...truely, totally, honestly happy. so i'll write more later or something, bye ya'll!
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