my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i'm so scared right now...one of may's friends is thinking about suicide. in turn, so is may. feh...why is all this happening at the same time yet again? lisa had a horrible day and didn't get to talk very long before she got off -_-. may and i just talked a while...i hope i said the right things...i remember going through that with a lot of my friends. and i kept things in like she was wanting to do. and i straight out told her, that i dont want her to do that. i started doing that when i was her age, and look at me now. i wouldn't wish this on someone that i love...one of my best friends. hun, everything will work out...it just needs some time. like i told ya before, if things like that dont work out, than neither i nor a few of my friends (and ex-friends) would be here now. i know all about the "if you die, i'm going too" thing...all too well, but please, consider everyone else in your life too. there ARE a LOT of people who care about you and love you, so please, this goes for everyone, think about everything before you do something stupid like that.
i'm in pain and its nine, so i've got to go for tonight. i love ya'll, bye.
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