my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
i just wrote a big huge entry, then my computer did a blue screen of death on me. i'm just putting the convo on here...unformatted...and i'll format it and explain tomorrow, cause i dont have time to right now. bye ya'll.
landa: hey sis, imma go lay down a while. pain's a lil too much to be in here sitting up if i dont need to be, heh.
landa: i love you...and i'll be back in a little bit
landa: bye sweetie *cuddles up*
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lisa: i guess ur still laying down..
lisa: brb i g2g to the broom
lisa: *bathroom
lisa: back..
lisa: *lonely*
lisa:
lisa: guess ill go back to my room and read the last 20 somewhat pages in my book...
lisa: sis, its 9:00...
lisa: im cold.....
lisa: my right hand is like ice..
lisa: ure somewhat gone sis...
lisa: ...
lisa: landa?
lisa: *as hands get warmer*
lisa: ?
landa: lisa landa is sleeping this mom you weren't on so she went to sleep
lisa: ..
lisa: oic..
landa: anything you want her to kow?
lisa: yeah...
lisa: that i wont be on most of tomorrow
lisa: i have to help run a track meet...
landa: ok
landa: let us know when she can talk to you either computer or phone?
lisa: yeah
lisa: i will
lisa: i dont know when im getting home, probably b4 7 ur time
landa: have a good nights sleep if you can
lisa: ill try..
landa: big hug
lisa: thanx..
lisa: hehe
lisa: *big hug*
lisa: lol
lisa: byez and thanx
landa: night
lisa: good night
~*as lisa gets on and immediately off*~
landa: LISA!~!!
landa: I"M HERE!!!
landa: and too late...
landa: *cries more*
lisa: landa?
landa: i'm here....
landa: just sent you an email...
landa: *cries*
lisa: i know....
lisa: landa dont cry..
lisa: why are u crying?
landa: i started crying when i woke up...
lisa: why?
lisa: *hug*
landa: i looked up and saw a huge ass "8:52" staring back at me
landa: i hate sleeping like that....
lisa: oic...
landa: tonight'll be hell...
lisa: well i know how u feel
landa: i didn't get to talk to you....
lisa: i was crying too...
lisa: i finished my book... it ended horribly...
landa: i just got to your entry...
lisa: *wipes away tears*
lisa: u left me at one point...
lisa: then i got really worried
landa: *tries to stop*
landa: when..?
lisa: landa can i at least see u..?
landa: *constant flow...*
lisa: around 8:50 my time...
lisa: landa?
landa: had to tell mom why im still on
lisa: oic
landa: shit i can't hardly type right
lisa: god sis its ok...
lisa: *cuddles up*
landa: brb...code 1...
lisa: ok sis
landa: *should be a frigging lawyeer the way she debates shit with her...*
lisa: aw sis...
landa: ...
landa: now shes telling me you should get off...
lisa: i took a nap too
lisa: way before though..
lisa: o god sis..
landa: *fights over whether this is pms or not*
lisa: *big snuggle hug*
lisa: *wipes away tears*
landa: *big snuggle hug*
lisa: did i leave u...?
landa: *shakes her head*
soulesskittie: ok.. good..
lisa: my poor sister....
lisa: *big snuggle hug*
landa: *big snuggle hug*
lisa: god i wish there was more i could do..
landa: its alright...
landa: *down to sniffles and bad feelings*
lisa: what kind of bad feelings?
lisa: *cuddles up*
landa: just kinda depressed and all...
lisa: sis dont be depressed...
lisa: im here arent i?
lisa: i still love u
lisa: ill ALWAYS love you
landa: *cuddles up*
lisa: *cuddles up*
landa: thanks sis..
lisa: yw sis...
lisa: *just remembered that poem...*
lisa: *hugs tightly*
landa: *hugs tightly*
landa: i dont even have access to what that poem talks about sis...
landa: dont worry about it..
landa: *as the elbow locks up*
lisa: *rubs elbow*
landa: *snuggles*
lisa: *snuggles*
landa: i'm sorry about today/tonight in general...
landa: i went in there laying down reading a magazine...
lisa: i forgive you...
landa: heh..
soulesskittie: and then u fell asleep
landa: yup..
landa: i hate doing that...it was about 7 when i did
lisa: oic
landa: i'm gonna be screwed for about a week
landa: heh..
lisa: hehe
lisa: god i know exactly how u feel here
landa: i know hun..
landa: *doesn't remember changing pants and taking off dog tags*
landa: *looks over and sees watcha nd ring...*
landa: ...ôo
lisa: ur mom made it sound like it was my fault that u fell asleep
lisa: aw...sis..
landa: i saw...she kept the window open....
lisa: !
landa: "she left messages for you that you should go read"
lisa: *puts hand over heart*
landa: which made me cry more
lisa: oic..
landa: goddammit i hate this...
lisa: me too...
landa: thats it, i may change everything and live down the street from you for at least a year sometime in my life...
lisa: really?
landa: i'm not joking, this sucks
lisa: heh, yes it does
lisa: that would be the greatest...
landa: either way, i'd be away from kristen and ashley...so i'd be fine, i think...
landa: skip music a year...
lisa: hm..
landa: i would do that too..
lisa: wow...
lisa: for.. me..?
lisa: us..?
landa: *coming from a wounded half asleep version of myself*
landa: *nods*
lisa: aw... sis...
lisa: *hugs tightly*
landa: *hugs tightly*
lisa: i told you over and over again
lisa: your beautiful
lisa: and wonderful..
lisa: and have such a kind heart...
lisa: the kindest heart I've known...
lisa: *puts hand over heart*
landa: *bout as melted as she can get right now*
lisa: lol
lisa: i love you so much sis..
lisa: i really hope u make it out here sometime soon...
lisa: moreso than ever..
landa: i love you too sis...and i'm tryin....
that's not all, but i'm ending it there. g'nite.
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