my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
today was actually an all around good day, for once. started out kinda shaky, but it got better with time, for the most part. sure, things still went wrong, but they got better.
this morning, lisa snuck on to talk to me. she said that she was going to get off before her mom killed her or something, and i said something along the lines of ok bye *hug* cause i thought that meant she was leaving right then. well, i was wrong. kinda dissappointed her some, but it got better by the time i got home. more on that later.
kathy picked me up a lil late cause she went around the block a few times waiting on pai, who never came out, so it was just me and her today. we got to school, and i went outside to do my math. i got one lesson done, and part of the worksheet which kristen and i "compares answers" on when she got there. mind you, i did the first lesson ENTIRELY on my own, and i actually TRIED on it. well, i get to second houer, and tommer checks the class instead of picking them up. she came to me and asked where my work was. i did it in my head, cause it was easier stuff than we had been doing, and she took off partial credit cause i had "a list of answers", when i write smaller and have work for about 75% of the lesson. am i the only one who sees something wrong with that?
fourth and eighth hours were switched again today, so i had hassig's class next...a class i wanted to go to. well, hassig wasnt there today, and we had a film to watch. i'm used to someone yelling about what's going on and giving me some good stuff for notes and all. the sub taught from the book, which doesn't help in that class, and just ran the film without saying a word. this guy was a history teacher at one point! ugh! heh, most of the class i sat there and stared at the front, leaning, proped up on one arm, with a glossed over look in my eye and a confused look on my face. i'm used to things being explained a hell of a lot better, and bluntly, than this guy did. let's see, something along the lines of "well these guys wanted this, and those guys said 'YO MAMA!' and they started getting pissed at each other over that." of course, these guys and those guys have names, but you get the idea. he makes it so you understand it.
sixth hour, we're painting in drawing class. they decided to get extremely happy with the paint today. i was in my best white shirt, and one of my two pairs of jeans that i own. heh, they're both screwed as of right now. there's various colors of paint on my shirt, including BLACK and there's WHITE on my frigging jeans. i was so pissed when i went to lunch and realised what had happened to my outfit. ugh, i'm starting to hate drawing class. all the rambuncious people are in that class.
aep was almost insignificant, so i'm not writing it. i got home, and lisa was on, something i was totally not expecting. so, we talked a while, and i realised if i opened the curtain, she could see me out back playing volleyball with the garage roof. so, i did that a while, it was halfway nice out. when she had to go for dinner, her mom realised that hse had punished her, and she couldn't get on the rest of the night -_-. she DID sneak on to tell me something though, but i'm not getting into it QUITE yet. give me a little while longer, and i'll touch on this subject. it involves needing to figure things out...and massive amounts of courage.
ok, i've got ot go for tonight. i'll write more tomorrow. love you guys...bye ya'll.
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.