my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
it was requested from someone to hear/read the story of how i met lisa, heh. so, here goes. i copy/pasted it from an email that i sent to someone, so, yeah, deal with it! o, and read the poem before this, hehe. here's the entry type thing now:
ok, back in august, we got the internet about the same time, heh. and i got bored and went to mtv.com to see what all the shit was about on there and all that. i did message boards a hell of a lot, and i kept seeing her on there commenting on mine. so, i went to check out her profile and i left her a note thingy saying i thought her profile was sweet. heh, about that time, i made my first web site, which i have since totally abandoned. something like this or something like that. i was going around on the message boards asking if there were any people that wanted their poems posted on a web site and all that. lisa was one of the first people there to believe in me for real. everyone else was all, like, "youre a scam!" and all that. but, lisa believed in me from the start. i think i still have two or three of her poems on that site, hehe. anyway, we started talking through mtv's email (which has since been deleted and then reinstated, so all the original messages are gone, heh). after a while we got our aim name thingys and started talking on there.
i still kinda remember the first time we talked on there, lol. that was one of my lawn mowing days, so i was in and out of the house a hell of a lot. the last time, my parents had locked me out, and i told her about it when i came back in. she thought it was halarious. and we just started talking on there a lot of the time. then she got a mic, and she talked, i typed. that's how i can type so frigging fast now, lol. YOU try keeping up typing with a new yorker who's talking, hehe.
anyway, yeah, she's one of the few people to believe in me from the start, hehe. she's the one who helped me get other people's poems on there, not just hers, cause everyone thought it was a scam. actually, i seriously thought she was older than me the way she talked to me and all that. i thought she was at least 17, but, i was wrong, she was 14, hehe. i found out fast that she's just mature for her age a lot of the time. and more of the time, more mature than i am, lol. but, yeah, we just kept on talking through IMs all the time, i eventually got a mic and we talked more. things just went uphill from there, and you know what it's like now.
so, yeah, that's how i met my little sister. ok kids, that's the end of story time for today, you can run along and play now, hehe. bye ya'll.
ADDING MORE!!! + later
some stuff just happened, and i figured i would add more since this is an entry about lisa, and i feel that i need/want to say some more things about her. i've made it so that you all have been able to watch our friendship grow already, basically, lol. so, i thought that i would explain some of the things that you've seen from, say for instance, the IMs that i've posted on here.
well, for one, there's one of the things that helped me decide on being wiccan. one night, we kinda discovered that we can practically feel each other with us a lot of the time. not anything gross or something like that, but, like, i can feel her with me, she can feel me with her. spirit-wise. all those *hugs* and *snuggles* and things, i can acutally feel, and so can she. i dunno, it's just like, one night, we both thought about seeing each other and hugging and all at the same time, and it stuck. it was shaky at first, but now it's all the time...for the most part. heh, the first time, when it "ended", it was like my heart was lifted or something, it was a great feeling that i never wanted to leave...and it generally doesn't. if we get pissed at eachother, like the night we all together stopped talking for a while (i'm too lazy to make a link), it goes away a while. thing is, it's become such a normal feeling, it hurts when it's taken away from either of us. that explains the "i'm working on it" said from me sometimes. i'm working on thinking about us being together and all so i'm "back with her" again. (not like that you nasty little pervs.)
heh, when i started adding more, i had so many things that i wanted to say...but i've forgotten most of them. thing is, i explained the big humongous part just now, so i'm gonna have to go. mom and dad should be home soon, and i dont want to be sitting back here trying to figure out what i was going to say next when they do...i value my life. g'nite ya'll.
O! i got a 95 on POTI reviews a couple days ago that you should check out! they used quotes and everything...and i felt great reading a review like that. also, tonight, i got my first real 100...at pansy reviews!!!!! ok, i'm really leaving this time. bye ya'll, love ya!
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