my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
ok guys, everyone always asks what the sweetest thing taht's ever happened to you is. well, this is mine. i'l explain it a lot more tomorrow, cause i'm late right now, i dont wanna get in trouble, heh. the formatting is weird cause this is off an MSN conversation, so...yeah, you'll have to deal with it, at least for now. ttyl guys, love you, bye.
Lisa says:
well survivor came on
Lisa says:
right after dinner
coyotesabre says:
i JUST sent you an email wondering if you were okay and all
coyotesabre says:
cause i know you were woozy
Lisa says:
i wasnt woozy
Lisa says:
i was sad
coyotesabre says:
...
coyotesabre says:
im sorry i was working on math...which i stil haven't finished...
coyotesabre says:
but, yeah...
Lisa says:
*is cleaning and putting clarinet away
Lisa says:
im not even supposed to be on right now btw
coyotesabre says:
i know...
Lisa says:
i have track pracitice tomorrow morning
coyotesabre says:
if you're up and still home around 7 your time, i'll be on, lol
Lisa says:
but i wont
Lisa says:
ill be getting ready for track
coyotesabre says:
kinda figured that, i was joking hun..
Lisa says:
hm.
coyotesabre says:
dumb question
coyotesabre says:
why exactly were you sad...? (i think i know)
Lisa says:
i was lonely...
coyotesabre says:
why didn't you say something...i would have gotten her to hold on...
Lisa says:
u were doing ur hw...
coyotesabre says:
i should still be doing it, but you mean more to me
Lisa says:
?
Lisa says:
i do?
coyotesabre says:
yes
coyotesabre says:
you mean more than my math homework
Lisa says:
i didnt know that...
coyotesabre says:
i care more about making sure you're alright than getting my stuff done
Lisa says:
wow...
coyotesabre says:
i thought you knew..
Lisa says:
nope..
coyotesabre says:
i've told you that i've put off my work to talk to you, thought you knew it, heh
coyotesabre says:
sorry i hadn't said it sooner hun
Lisa says:
k...
Lisa says:
well now that ur talking to me
Lisa says:
i cant even be on though
coyotesabre says:
well, i'll be here at 4:30 your time tomorrow hun...
Lisa says:
yup..........................
coyotesabre says:
i'm always with you lisa..keep that in mind..
Lisa says:
u left me before... part of the reason why i was so lonely...
coyotesabre says:
*stab*...
Lisa says:
but i will sis...
coyotesabre says:
i'm sorry.....
coyotesabre says:
very, very sorry...with all meh heart...
Lisa says:
ok...
coyotesabre says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
..*snuggles*
coyotesabre says:
*puts a hand on her heart*
coyotesabre says:
i'l always be there lisa...whenever you need me or feel lonely, i'm there for you
coyotesabre says:
wherever you will go
Lisa says:
k...
Lisa says:
heh im surprised u didnt hear me yelling "im invisible" before
coyotesabre says:
i could barely hear you over your music sis...i'm sorry...
coyotesabre says:
that was on me, i'm used to having the headphones...
Lisa says:
oic...
coyotesabre says:
*big snuggle hug*
Lisa says:
*big snuggle hug*
coyotesabre says:
if there's anything i can do to cheer you up...
coyotesabre says:
cause i feel like shit now...
Lisa says:
well
Lisa says:
i really want to see u...
coyotesabre says:
sis, are you gonna get in trouble though...
Lisa says:
yeah but...
Lisa says:
im so fucking lonely...
coyotesabre says:
i guess try and make sure you dont get caught..
coyotesabre says:
i dont want you getting in trouble...v
Lisa says:
i know...
coyotesabre says:
i love you sis..
Lisa says:
im not going on cam for that reason..
coyotesabre says:
mkay
Lisa says:
ur still hyper?
coyotesabre says:
nah, coming down from it
coyotesabre says:
kinda mellow, heh
Lisa says:
im just lonely...
coyotesabre says:
*holds her sis*
coyotesabre says:
how bout now? hehe
Lisa says:
ur starting to come back..
coyotesabre says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
*snuggles*
coyotesabre says:
*vuddles up*
coyotesabre says:
*cuddles
Lisa says:
heh i loike to vuddle
Lisa says:
*like
coyotesabre says:
i loike it too, hehe
Lisa says:
with zee seester
coyotesabre says:
coyotesabre says:
yus, i like to vuddle vith ze seester too
Lisa says:
hehe
Lisa says:
*cuddles up*
coyotesabre says:
*cuddles up*
coyotesabre says:
*never gonna let go*
Lisa says:
*puts hand on cheek*
Lisa says:
ur such a beautiful person sis...
Lisa says:
i really hope u think this soon...
coyotesabre says:
*grabs hand*
coyotesabre says:
*squeezes*
coyotesabre says:
don worry about it..i will
Lisa says:
*squeezes*
Lisa says:
just not any time soon..?
coyotesabre says:
maybe
coyotesabre says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
ur still barely here for some reason..
coyotesabre says:
*snuggles more*
coyotesabre says:
i'll work on that..
Lisa says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
u look sad now...
coyotesabre says:
i'm not sad
coyotesabre says:
working on it, heh
Lisa says:
well its working
coyotesabre says:
coyotesabre says:
better now?
Lisa says:
*cuddles up and curls up*
Lisa says:
mmhmm
coyotesabre says:
*holds her sis*
Lisa says:
ur so safe and warm sis...
coyotesabre says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
*snuggles*
coyotesabre says:
that's meh job, hehe
Lisa says:
heh
Lisa says:
no one else here is warm...
coyotesabre says:
?
Lisa says:
people are usually cold towards me
Lisa says:
and when theyre warm
Lisa says:
their not really warm
Lisa says:
their just full of pity
coyotesabre says:
oic
Lisa says:
no else loves me like a sister...
coyotesabre says:
well, i always will, and i'll always be here for you..
Lisa says:
*starts crying on and off*
Lisa says:
ok...
coyotesabre says:
*gives her a shoulder to cry on*
Lisa says:
*uses it while hugging her sister*
coyotesabre says:
*holds her sister while she cries*
coyotesabre says:
(as if i dont do it anyway now, hehe)
Lisa says:
hehe...
Lisa says:
im now realizing that no one does that for me either...
Lisa says:
cept for u
coyotesabre says:
me neither..
Lisa says:
really?
coyotesabre says:
yeah
coyotesabre says:
ashers did once, in december, heh..
Lisa says:
but doesnt kristen and ashley do that?
Lisa says:
oic
coyotesabre says:
kristen doesn't help me much when i'm cryin
Lisa says:
da,...
Lisa says:
*dam
Lisa says:
oops
coyotesabre says:
tis ok
coyotesabre says:
i mean, i'll call her but she either wont be there or is there and just listens
coyotesabre says:
she's a better listener, but she knows exactly what to say a lot of the time
Lisa says:
hey i just tried to make myself feel better:
Lisa says:
(///)(///) its matts butt!
Lisa says:
oic
coyotesabre says:
that's great sis, lol
Lisa says:
thanx sis lol
coyotesabre says:
*snuggles*
Lisa says:
(_____________)(______________)
Lisa says:
AHHHHHHH MARK NELSON!
coyotesabre says:
LMAO!!
Lisa says:
frosted flake commercials on!
Lisa says:
with
Lisa says:
tony the tiger
coyotesabre says:
yeah, i just heard it, hehe
Lisa says:
heh
coyotesabre says:
lois is watching it in the living room
Lisa says:
oic
coyotesabre says:
she's a young couch potato already, heh..
Lisa says:
hm
coyotesabre says:
she refuses to do anything other than watch cartoon network half the time
Lisa says:
oic
coyotesabre says:
or movies
Lisa says:
dam
coyotesabre says:
and if you turn it off or mute it...
coyotesabre says:
AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH! TURN IT BACK ON!!!!
Lisa says:
thats better than running around the house screaming
Lisa says:
oic
Lisa says:
hmmmmmmm
Lisa says:
brat
coyotesabre says:
yes
coyotesabre says:
bratty spoiled princess
Lisa says:
landa i must say
coyotesabre says:
yes?
Lisa says:
u are one of the most unspoiled people i know
coyotesabre says:
*thinks about how people say that she's spoiled a lot of the time*
Lisa says:
!!!
Lisa says:
WHAT?!
Lisa says:
how the HELL are YOU spolied???
coyotesabre says:
yup, when i get a new cd that i didn't have to pay for (which is very damn rare) or something like that, they yell at me and call me that
Lisa says:
landa smile dammit.......
coyotesabre says:
cause i "didn't have to earn it"
Lisa says:
damn...
Lisa says:
ur parents should meet me
Lisa says:
then theyll stop saying that to u
Lisa says:
I am spolied
coyotesabre says:
no, not my parents saying that
coyotesabre says:
my friends
Lisa says:
Lisa says:
WHAT?!
coyotesabre says:
not kristen and ashers
Lisa says:
those asshole
coyotesabre says:
everyone else
Lisa says:
s
coyotesabre says:
i mean EVERYONE
Lisa says:
theyre bigger assholes than mark nelsons crack
coyotesabre says:
lol, good one
Lisa says:
thanx sis
coyotesabre says:
i've had to earn everything that i've gotten for the last four years
Lisa says:
hm
coyotesabre says:
RARELY do i get something that isn't earned
Lisa says:
then THEY should meet me
Lisa says:
and they will gawk at my spoiled-nesss
coyotesabre says:
i have to earn frigging school clothes at the beginning of the year
coyotesabre says:
"your ones from last year are fine!"
Lisa says:
my mom buys me $300 worth of school clothes in the beginning
coyotesabre says:
"you dont need new shoes! i see no holes!"
Lisa says:
*you need new shoes! they arent cool enough!*
coyotesabre says:
i get..um..cheapest things at wal-mart at the beginning
Lisa says:
i... dont...
Lisa says:
*feels really godamn spoiled......
coyotesabre says:
and not many at that, but i'm fine with that
coyotesabre says:
you shouldn't
Lisa says:
heh im not...
Lisa says:
u deserve so much more...
coyotesabre says:
we dont have the money to get me anything more than what they do, and i understand that, heh...
Lisa says:
ok then..
Lisa says:
fine...
coyotesabre says:
i didn't mean anything like that lisa...
coyotesabre says:
i just mean...
coyotesabre says:
i hear them talk about bills at night, when they think i dont
Lisa says:
but u dont eat
Lisa says:
u dont ask for a THING
coyotesabre says:
i know why i dont have any more clothes than what i have
Lisa says:
but u NEED more clothes
Lisa says:
i sware to god when I get older...
Lisa says:
im taking u out on a freaking shopping spree
coyotesabre says:
well, after this summer, i get a feeling i'm paying for my new clothes...2 jobs, heh...
coyotesabre says:
"you have the money, go buy em your own damn self"
Lisa says:
get u a nice blue shirt with a big white tiger on it...
Lisa says:
*kicks mom in the stomach
coyotesabre says:
heh...
Lisa says:
thats it im looking for a blue shirt with a white tiger on it
coyotesabre says:
...really?
Lisa says:
yeah
Lisa says:
u have a birthday
Lisa says:
itll only cost like what?
Lisa says:
$20?
Lisa says:
no problem
coyotesabre says:
heh, that's generally my spending limit for birthdays and stuff on people...
Lisa says:
me too.....
Lisa says:
my mom is stingy with people for their birthday...
coyotesabre says:
oic..
Lisa says:
thats why im buying it myself
coyotesabre says:
no, i mean personal spending limit...they wont generally buy things
coyotesabre says:
hence why i had to make everything this year...
Lisa says:
hm..
Lisa says:
well theres nothing wrong with that sis
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