my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
hey ya'll, i actually had a great day today! go me! i stayed awake through math, which was a feat in itself today...i was about to pass out, if i didn't have my glasses on. the frames make it hard to sleep. next, sixth hour, i thought i totally messed up on my drawing which is turning into a painting. the teacher saw me, and said that i had a great example of what he wanted! hehe!
lunch today, omygoodness. matt and i fought over a bench, hovering over it pushing each other with our backs. he started tickling me, and i was pushing harder...then he "butt raped" me on my back...very interesting thing he came up with. i ended up laughing myself to a loss and hitting the pavement, but it was so fun to be able to do stuff like that at lunch again. haven't really gotten any attention at lunch for a while now, hehe.
eighth hour today was great! our class had earned another party, so we were setting up to have that. hassig has a thing with reading all the A's out loud, and now that the board says it's okay, he can say the scores too. i was amazed that the last 91 he read was...ME! he said before he said my name "i have no idea how she did it, she missed a frigging week of my class, but landa got a ninety one!" then everyone started clapping and a couple people stood up. they actually showed they cared for the first time in a while, and it felt good, hehe. that put me in a good mood for the rest of the day.
the concert tonight...hehe, the acoustics in that church are great. mom said that we sounded good. just good. anyway, i "gracefully tripped" (which means i fell on my bootie) off a smal step that i didn't know was there to get off the pews. i had gotten on the other side where it slants up slowly, heh. after we sang and were geting ready to leave, chrissy asked me to get her hanger out from under the seat. i hit my head on the pew in front of me...not a good thing. i was kinda light headed after that, heh.
mrs. haggee did a little speach. mrs. roberson's mom is back in the hospital and not expected to do well. afterwards as mom and i were leaving, she went over to talk to her. she heard a man talking to her saying that he hopes everything works out alright, and roberson said it won't, that she's dying. she didn't tell us that on monday, and she normally does say stuff like that. it explains the bad mood and the yelling at us more though.
i came home and talked to lisa for the remainder of her time, and then...the cat unplugged my computer as we were saying bye!!! not acceptable!!! so i plugged it back in yelling at it to hurry up and finish doing scan disk, and she was still on, luckily. she had been kinda sad before, but she seemed really sad then. i wish i could be there to help when she's like this...and i really hope she feels better tomorrow.
well, it's after nine, so i've got to go for tonight. i'll be out of school tomorrow, so i might be able to write more. i gotta do a math project though, so, yeah, if i have time, i'll try to write more tomorrow than i have been the past few days. bye ya'll!
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