my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
just when i started thinking everything would be okay last night, something happened. lisa has her diary almost back to the way it was, course theres a couple missing links, but that can be fixed with memory. she got all the ones she could think of on there, and i remember her saying something about maybe not all of her friend's links are there now. she was better, and had finally stopped crying...then her parents took over. she had let michael on for a little bit, and came back to say bye real fast. well, her mom saw her and yelled at her that she had to go. i have no idea that the hell happened, but she's grounded from the computer today...something she totally doesn't need right now.
i went to read her entry at about 10:15, after fighting with my mother, handing her my dogtags as colateral and just walking back here anyway after being yelled at. i wanted to know how worried i should be, because i was going nuts in my mind by then. so, i came back here and read it...and i walked stunned back into the living room, picked up my dogtags, said goodnight weakly, and walked into my room and proceeded to start crying. i prayed that she was alright and asked for a sign or something...right after i was done, wherever you will go came on the radio. i knew she was alright for the moment at least. then i sat in my room, and added more to her present, heh. (lisa, you're getting more for your birthday than i thought you were going to, hehe.) i couldn't sleep till about 12:30, and i have the state math assessment first thing today. this should be interesting.
i need to go get ready for school which includes eating something since i didn't really sleep. i'm going to post an old poem after school today, but i know that someone may need to read it if she sneaks on *wink wink*. i guess till then, bye ya'll.
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