my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
alright, mom and dad just left to go get perscriptions, so i have a limited amount of time to write in here. i have to do my math too.
lisa and i were on here till 9:30. kendall isn't gonna make it much longer. she went into a coma early this morning. tina had them take her off the life support a while ago, and she was breathing for a little while, then she stopped breathingon her own...i think she's gone, i'm not sure, they may have put her back on support after that. lisa stayed with me all night and talked to me, even when i didn't do that much talking to her. ashley, i'm sorry if your'e just now finding out cause i haven't got to talk to you about it. kristen, yes, it got this bad. and amazingly enough, i have yet to cry. it's probably gonna come when i'm trying to et to sleep tonight. but, i'm happy that lisa stayed there with me, there's no telling what i may have done or said to people tonight if she wasn't there to keep me sane. i accidently hit my watch, and there was kristen. and of course thinkin about what ashley would tell me and everything. lord i hope she gets to stay the night sometime this weekend, i owe her mac and cheese, and having her here may feel even better. my lil sis did a good job of cheering me up though, that means a hell of a lot to me.
before i forget, this was kinda big too. yesterday, lisa was asked if she's bi, cause suposedly by her diary entries, she sounds like it. look, if you're gonna think about her like that, then you're gonna have to think it about me too, cause all she's doin is sayin she loves me, most of the time in the words i love you sis. and i do that too, you guys know it. so, please, don't think that aobut her, or anyone else for that matter, if you know that it's not true. please. if you don't get anything else from reading this diary at times, at least get that. don't judge others on false pretences.
i gotta go so i can finish that math. i may not be too happy or whatever for the next few days, so please understand that kendall is my....best friend.....and..yeah.... her mom had me write her last entry in her diary, so you may wanna go check that out too. so, till tomorrow, g'nite everyone.
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