my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
ok, i did a little experiment at lunch today, heh. well, it ended up sucking. i got outside, and brian immediately said something about me, and then the rest of the group was talking about lord of the rings, which i have yet to go see. i plan on seeing it sometime, so i walked over to the other picnic table for a while. then i went over on the ramp and sat on the railing at the corner, where everyone outside would see a person, either coming out from the RLU's, playing hacky sack, or going back in the main building. i sat there to see if anyone would, like, see if i'm alright or something, like i do with them when i see that something's wrong with them. well, no one came. only person was josh levin. all my other "friends" didn't say a word, course kristen didn't go outside today.
after lunch it got a little better though. we had to get the spanish final done before we went to lunch so we had the rest of the class to talk and all that. alvaro and shawn talked with me in the middle when we got our free time. well, first it was just me and alvaro, it was kinda fun, hehe. we were just talkin about..well..whatever came up. then he and shawn started talkin about their band and all that that they're making with boone. and it was just fun(ny) hearing them talk about it, hehe. then they proceeded to make fun of country music for me, and they're the only ones that i let get away with it. they do it in a funny, cuteish way though. it's fun just talkin to them together, when mrs. whitney isn't saying something about "this isn't the grande olde opry!" then the bell rang and i had to go take my biology test. eh boy.
i got done with the test and just sat there and started writing. (poem coming on here tomorrow, it's REALLY long and will take up too much room tonight.) it took all of class to get about halfway done, and i was looking over it on the bus. i had a lot mroe done than that, but i didn't like what i had, so i re-wrote a lot of it...and added a lot more, hehe. then i ended up going off on brittney cause she wouldn't leave me alone. eh boy. then on the bus i wasn't a happy camper either. i got off kinda pissy, but, i got over it.
that's about all for now, cause, that's all of my day, heh. so, till tomorrow, bye ya'll.
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