my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
well, the new year came in bad, so, this should be interesting. here's what happened. at about 11:55, i asked mom to change it for the ball drop, cause she was watching the NYPD Blue marathon. well, she didni't want to change it, so i got pissed and went to my room. bout 11:58 i came back and she changed it...to the wrong channel. i missed new years. me and mom started yelling at each other about that, and about how she wouldn't let me on to write a new year's email to someone who i wanted to write to. i went in my room and played my keyboard for a while then went to bed. that was my new years 2002. it sucked ass. i missed it two years in a row now. i know it's not a huge thing, but i like seeing all that happen, especially now that i know a bunch of people in new york, and the ball drop reminds me of them. (you guys know who you are ;) )
today i got bored enough to finish up the formatting on here. i hope you all like it, it took all day to get right. and i'm sorry if you came here when i was in the midst of fixing up the place, it looked pretty funky for a while when i was doing that. but, it's all better now! with more stuff,i might add. and i'm gonna see about making a bio and characters page next weekend. if not then, than next wednesday, no school for the end of the quarter. that brings something to mind. that day, i and most of my friends will be exactly halfway thru our lives at sumner (my school) two and a half years. it feels like yesterday i was a scared rookie, afraid to make new friends, and basically afraid of what people would think of me up there. (and eager to meet this kristen that megan so often told me about, hehe) that means, it's only two and a half more years until i can be out on my own, hopefully living the dream i've had for more than five years now. right here and now, i vow to not lose touch with my close friends at that time. and i now realise that after next year, a lot of the people i know will be gone, my junior friends. carol, dana, sasha...i'm gonna miss them senior year. they learned to put up with me as a rookie (one of them before that) and i'm greatful for them, very. i hope we don't lose touch either guys (and gals)!
well, i'm gonna go now. i have about a half hour before i ahve to be off of here, judging amy's gonna be on, hehe. can't miss that. and for all of you who haven't figured it out, this is what i'm REALLY like, and i am going to stop acting TOMORROW. this is an introduction for those of you who don't know me already. but, imma go now. talk to ya tomorrow everyone, bye!
layout and all content İcoyotesabre 2005. images manipulated in paint shop pro 8, obtained through yahoo search.