my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
tonight, well, it was really bad, but has gotten better. i was talking ot lisa for a while, and i kinda messed up, in a way acting like i didn't care. and i got off to go do stuff with kristen, and lisa was getting on and off before i had a chance ot get back here again. turns out i messed up more than i had thought, and felt horrible for it, on top of worry and fear for tomorrow and that tonight was the last night that i may have to talk to kendall. but, eventually, lisa got to feeling better. we went on voice for a while, and being on voice with lisa and having kristen here at the same time is an interesting experience. wouldn't reccomend it to anyone i know but...heh, you know i'm playin guys. but, i'm happy that i DID get to talk to both of them, cause it made me feel a lot better than i woulda been if i had been alone tonight. o, the funny thing, in the midst of everything that was going on, i was trying to make mac and cheese for dinner AND talk to kendall and get some stuff said which i didn't get everything said that i had hoped...but i said enough, hopefully.
better go. i'm sneaking time as we speak, and i value my life right now. tty tomorrow, and hopefully i'll have a report on how kendall is. g'nite everyone!
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