my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
so much has happened in the last few hours, it's not even funny. i'm now writing from ashley's house cause i didn't want to be alone tomorrow. lisa has a track meet in rhode island saturday, and leaves tomorrow morning. i'm gonna miss her so much...and kristen is doing some major cleaning around her house, so she couldn't come over or anything either. so, here i am, sitting here thinking about everything that has happened and that i have found out...
sometime this evening, i forget when, kendall signed on. come to find out, it's tina. she told me what has really been wrong with kendall. she's been sick for 2 weeks and it really got to her last night. they didn't tell me cause they didn't want to worry me and all that. i've had a lot going on, as you all know, but i can take the stress and everything, especially something like this. i got over the initial shock, and told lisa. she was about to go so she could star tpacking for tomorrow, but she stayed on and let me go ahead and talk while she packed. she's so sweet, caring....ok, anyway, i found out that her surgery is on monday and all that, and i'm scared. as soon as i let someone in...shes my best friend...i have no idea what i should or can do...dunno what to say...all that. lisa and i talked for the rest of the time i was at home. she was there for me so much tonight.
i dunno hwat to say about all this, i really don't. to sum it all up, i'm scared that i'm going to lose my best friend. i truely am. and she and tina keep telling me not to worry, but how can i not? if only there was something i could do...
don't really remember the rest of the day, and i dunno if i can keep on typing, so i'm gonna cut it off here. g'nite all.
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