my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
here's a letter i just sent to lisa. stuff in parenthesis is stuff so that you know what's goin on.
i just got thru talkin to tina (kendall's mother, also my friend). i pissed kendall off, and she has a really REALLY bad temper being an ex-addict. well, she stormed out of the house. tina asked what was wrong, and she said to go ask the jersey nun *which would be me*. well, today was her best friend's funeral, and she was seriously playin around and actin stupid. i said that it was getitn kinda sad, something you knowi always say anyway.. she went off sayin "yeah, i SHOULD be sad, my best friend is 6 feet under" and all that stuff. i sais i was gonna shut up, she said good idea, and got off. tina got on and talked to me. she told me that she was tryin to think of a way to tell kendall something...she's dying faster than she thinks. (kendall's the one i talked about the other night, for those who don't remember. she has cancer...) she's doing fine now, but any time now, the cancer's gonna get her...she says it'll be like snap, and, yeah...everyone tells me that i need to make new friends, i do, and something like this.....and i found out tina can't take care of shelby (kendall's daughter), that she'll go to an aunt...i'm gonna go now so i can cry...i'll talk to you later on sis. love you. bye.
that's it...her mom told me she has less than 6 months...soon as i get a best friend...i'm gonna go now. bye.
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