my world enchanted
landa; eighteen; attached lesbian; kansas city; kansas; live with my daddy; baby named sango; kid named storm; crochity old lady kiddy; generally here hanging out or somewhere else with elsbe; love music; college freshman; undecided major.
everything i dreamed
elsbe; evanescence; inuyasha; rachel; cauterize; dashboard; daddy; sango; kiddy; music in general; gamecube; online games; block breaker on the cell; ashley; kristen; sai; mika; sheryl crow; katie holmes; women of substance; gravitation; what few friends i have; slight thunderstorms; cool rain on my skin in the summer; the feeling of falling in love.
my life in shadow
boys who will never be men; men who will never be boys; homophobia; closed-mindedness; the feeling of falling away from love; seeing someone walk away; reaching for air; losing what little friends i have; fighting with someone; feeling like a mooch; severe thunderstorms; losing touch; feeling alone; living alone; always being wrong; crying.
today since this morning...hmm...almost missed my bus cause i was on here too long. i only had 5 minutes to get everything ready and get out the door cause i needed to send lisa something.
we got our math tests back in class today. of course, i already knew what i had gotten cause of friday. i believe kristen got a B or an A- on hers. i think casey got a B too. i was the lowest out of everyone else that i talk to. not a fun thing to know. for all of AEP, i read harry potter (i'm on book three now, yay!) and talked to people. didn't really get that much said cause i had no idea what they were talking about.
6th hour, i got colors and stuff all over my pants from the pastels i was coloring with. i now have rainbow pants...o fun. at lunch, i hacked the whole time. it was getting kinda fun, think there were three hacks going at once at one point. think i scared kristen though. i was asking around for the time to see if i needed to go back n stuff. i had, like, 5 minutes left before i needed to be back in class, so i started to leave. i turned back, ran at kristen, waved and said "bye sis." brandi said something like i thought you were gonna hug her, running at ehr like that. i did the whole stalk-running thing again, and kris ran around. miss congeniality came up. she said that i looked like i was gliding, like when that one guy is teaching her how to walk. so, that was the big thing for the whole time befre i had to go back. it was fun. i was just told that after i left, kate tried to do it, and did the whole fall thing. that part, she wasn't trying to do. but, you ahve to glide, you don't do the whole walking thing, lol. found out 8th hour before class that she doesn't like the idea of someone running up on her to hug her. i'll have to remember that one. *stores that away for future refrence*
i got home and came back here to talk to lisa when she got home. turns out she had a pretty bad day. made the fire show up in my eyes again, not a good thing. people need to learn to leave her alone. it got to where i was on my unknown sn again so we could talk. i really wish i could do something about all this pain she's getting put through. she's really been depressed, and there's not that much i can do from here...i really wish she was here or i was there...dam 1400 miles is a long way...my goal is winter vacation next year, driving there...i might have a car by then, just gotta hope the heat works and that i can convince someone to go with me, that would be a long lonely drive. but, it's worth it :D. but anyway, all these people talking about her all the time...there really isn't any reason for them to hurt her like this. people fall all the time, people get hurt all the time, they shouldn't ridicule her like this. i know how she feels, which adds more to it to me. like i've said before, i wouldn't wish these feelings upon anyone, especially her, who is really going thru it right now. i hate anyone who talks about lisa at this point. i don't even know these people and i hate them. it takes a lot to make me hate someone, and i hate them. not good.
i'm gonna go now. i'll have a poem on here tomorrow. laterz.
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